The Art Of An Effective Morning Routine

I’m sure I’m not alone in this, I am not a morning person. I am the queen of hitting snooze, getting up at the last second and getting ready quickly and mindlessly. I am always rushing and running late.

Honestly, it’s a pretty shitty thing to do to myself. By rushing and stressing every morning, I not only lose out on valuable time to take care of myself, I’m setting that tone for my day.

1) Get Up, No Really Get UP!

Pick a time and stick to it. If you’re not used to waking up early, you may want to start by waking 15 minutes earlier each day. I chose 6:30AM as my wake up time. I leave in the morning at 8AM, so it gives me an hour and a half to wake up and set myself up for success.

You must, and I cannot stress this enough, get up as soon as your alarm goes off. I find it helpful to set one alarm for the time I must wake up and get back to bed. If I set 3 alarms 10 minutes apart, I won’t fall back into restful sleep anyways.

Making it routine to hear your alarm and get right up is key for actually getting up. Sure, it sucks. Especially in the beginning. However, the more often you do it, the easier it gets.

2) Have Something To Look Forward To.

For me, it’s coffee. I love flavored hot coffee. I prepare it the night before so I can turn on my coffee maker, use the bathroom, and wash my face.

By the time I am finished, I have a warm cup of flavored coffee to enjoy. After a few sips of coffee, I am ready to continue my morning.

I also light a candle and play some gentle music, sometimes acoustic covers and sometimes The Coffeehouse by Sirius XM.

3) Eat Something, Even If It’s Light.

I usually alternate between cereal and oatmeal along with a banana or some strawberries. Some prefer to eat breakfast after getting ready, but because I try to stop eating an hour before bed, I’m pretty hungry when I wake up.

I like to have my journal out, in case I feel like making a physical note of how I’m feeling, jotting down ideas, or making a to-do list. Typically, I look at my planner the night before, but if I know it’s going to be a particularly heavy day,

4) Move Your Body In A Way That Works For You.

I don’t think I will ever be the person that bounces up from sleep at 5:30AM and gets ready to go to the gym. I don’t like getting up before the sun does. For a lot of people, it’s what works. I’m scared of those people.

I try to move my body in a simple way each morning. I do some light yoga or take my dog on a short walk. I don’t sign up for 6AM workout classes that I’ll snooze my way into missing. I keep it easy and quick, practicing deep breathing and mindfulness.

5) Start Getting Ready.

Take a shower if you didn’t take one last night. Wash your face, brush your teeth, take your medication. Drink water, lots of water. Pick out an outfit that you feel confident and if you’re feeling it, put on a little make up. Not for anyone, just for yourself.

To keep myself moving at a pace that will get me out the door on time, I like to listen to a podcast. My current favorites are Michelle Obama’s and The Highest Self Podcast. Hopefully I’ll learn something new. While getting ready, I state my affirmations. I listed a few that I say almost daily.

I am strong.
I am capable.
I am loved.
I am deserving of good things.
I am important to others.

6) Whatever Fills Your Cup.

Once I am ready, I make my lunch if I didn’t the night before and pack my bag. When I am ready, I determine how much time I have until I need to leave. I make it a point to leave the door 5 minutes before I need to.

Below are some activities I do with 5 minutes, 10 minutes, and 20 minutes before leaving.

5 Minutes to Fill:

  • Quick phone sesh, swipe through Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and my favorite, TikTok.
  • Write out a to-do list, grocery list, gratitude list. Make a list.
  • Take deep breaths, meditate, stretch.
  • Listen to music (Folklore still on repeat for anyone else?)

10 Minutes to Fill:

  • Watch an Inspiring TedTalk
  • Journal
  • Color
  • Cuddle sesh

20 Minutes to Fill:

  • Watch a short light-hearted show
  • Wash some dishes
  • Fold some laundry
  • Write a letter
  • Pay a bill
  • Do something that tired 5:30PM you will be happy about

Let me know in the comments if any of this is useful, or what pieces are necessary in your morning routine! There’s no right and wrong way, but this has been my experience about what the best and most effective ritual is for starting my day. Likewise, you know yourself better than anybody!


Hi, My Name is Lonely

TW: depressing AF, a little hopeless, definitely whiny

I won’t for a second pretend that I have it harder than anybody else. For years, I was the queen of woe. I was depressed. I was anxious. I had trauma. I had the early stages of an alcohol problem. I was poor. I was lonely.

I’m sitting back, looking at the past tense that I use to describe my struggles, but most of them I’m still dealing with today.

I am depressed. I am anxious. I have trauma. I struggle with money. I am lonely.

Loneliness, I believe, is the biggest mental health crisis of 2020. We are all lonely, because for awhile, we need to stay alone as much as we can.

We cover half our face, but you can see it in our eyes. This is really fucking hard. I sleep in the same bed as my girlfriend every night, and while I’m asleep I know I’m not alone.

But when I have to wake up, I’m by myself.

By myself, I have to get out of bed.

By myself, I have to take a shower even when I can’t even imagine doing so.

By myself, I go to work and take on the burden of others even though I too am struggling.

By myself, I prepare dinner and force myself to eat something besides cereal, as that had been the meal for the past several days.

By myself, I go to the pharmacy to pick up my antidepressants, only to find out they hadn’t been filled. A blessing, really, compared to going the following day and my card getting declined and not being able to take my Zoloft in 5 days because I couldn’t afford it.

By myself, I pick my scabs off my skin, layer after layer until it gets infected or I find the will to stop.

So if I’m struggling and feeling like the weight of the world is on my shoulders but I can’t hold it because we’re supposed to be six feet apart, what the hell am I supposed to do?

How do I get others through this if I can’t get myself through this?

I don’t know how much loner I can do this. I am so lonely, even in a crowded room I feel so fucking alone. Everyone is so far away, both geographically and mentally.

It’s just me. And if I feel like I’m slowly dying while trying to get through every day, I cannot imagine what others are going through.

Nothing is more important than community, and despite efforts to make us feel connected through technology and letters and masked hang outs, it’s not the same.

My family lives really far away. I wasn’t ready for any of them to move away but they all kept leaving. At 21 my parents moved to Tennessee and by the time I was 22 my sister had moved to Pennsylvania (now North Carolina).

I feel like I lost my family. Today, I FaceTimed with my sister as she and her husband went to visit my parents for the long weekend, because its only a 5 hour drive and restrictions are much looser down south than Massachusetts. My family members that live closest to us don’t reach out because they have their own lives, but today went out to western Massachusetts to visit more family. My baby cousin turned 2, and I wasn’t invited to her birthday party.

Even my mother, who lives an hour away in Massachusetts refuses to visit, but went up to New Hampshire with my brother to spend Labor Day Weekend with my brother’s family.

I don’t know why I am constantly excluded from everything, but my dad and stepmom used to make sure we were together for the big stuff. At 24, they didn’t live thousands of miles away from their families. They lived near the siblings and their parents. They were grown up but they weren’t alone.

I finished college and I knew this was coming. There was no home to go back to. I had to make my own home, my own family, my own support system. Still, I begged everyone to still include me during the holidays, to go out to lunch, to go for hikes, hell, even to let me babysit so I could be with family.

There’s a pandemic, so why would I feel like I can take this personally?

I work with at risk individuals and have been closely exposed to coronavirus several times, I can’t blame my family for not reaching out so often. I’m struggling, I know they are too.

I’m just so lonely. I know I will be fine and am learning to embrace being alone. It just sucks.

I don’t have it harder than everyone else, but it’s still hard and I am still struggling. I’m not pushing my feelings aside and just going through the motions anymore.

I am feeling all the feelings, even the ones I’d rather not. I’m in less of a fog, I’m remembering my dreams, I am making progress and killing it in life. Even though I’m sensitive.

I’m okay today and I will be okay tomorrow. Life will keep getting harder but I believe I will keep getting stronger.

6 Simple Tips For Dealing With Anger

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I have been working through my anger for a long time. A LONG time. Angry at my parents, angry at my peers, angry at my bosses, angry at the world, and most of all, the systems that keep people marginalized/impoverished/down.

I had a tendency to react quickly and dramatically. At times, I would be in a full meltdown over a minor inconvenience, and if someone wronged me I would hold a grudge. I was angry at myself and at the life I lived. It just kept getting projected onto others.

So yeah- I know plenty about being angry, but I have learned so much about working through my anger, channeling my anger into something positive, and sometimes just letting things go.

Here are my top 5 alternatives to getting angry, brought to you by psychiatric medications, lots of therapy, and slow but steady self-growth.

1. Wait 24 hours, then react if you are still angry.

It’s important that you give yourself time before you react, especially in a serious situation. My standard is to wait 24 hours if I feel alright doing so, and if it still bothers me in 24 hours I will speak up. After 24 hours, I use my voice in a calm way to clearly state what I am angry about and what I would like done.

2. Find the root of your anger, and deal with that.

Anger is often simply anxiety in disguise. Not always, of course. Sometimes an individual’s action can anger you, or another direct scenario that led to an angry response.

Are you angry at the amount of traffic there is at rush hour, or are you upset at yourself for pressing snooze one too many times and running late?

Are you angry at your partner for not doing the dishes, or are you feeling overwhelmed about how much you have on your plate?

I believe that more often then not, anxiety manifests itself as anger as an “easy” coping mechanism. By deflecting an anxious situation by simply getting angry, you are denying yourself the opportunity to recognize your triggers and work through them.

3. Practice deep breathing.

The key to successfully utilizing calming breaths in situations when you are angry is to practice when you are not. Being able to turn to a healthy alternative to anger must be practiced and its unlikely that you will be able to adequately calm yourself down with deep breathing if you are in the middle of an angry episode.

Meditation, a sister of practicing controlled breath, is also a great option if you’re looking for something more intense. I’m a huge fan of guided meditations on Spotify or Headspace.

I underestimated the power of stress balls for the longest time, until a friend of mine got me one. I LOVE these ones from Amazon. Squeeze while you breathe in, release as you breathe out. I keep one in my office, one by my bed, and one in my bag! It’s a must have.

In through the nose, out through the mouth. Breathe.

4. Move your body.

It might be the last thing you want to do, but getting up and physically removing yourself from a situation that is causing you to be angry is an easy immediate solution. It could be as simple as going for a walk or as intense as going to an exercise class.

You know yourself best, and might need to try a few options until you figure out what works best for you to keep your cool.

5. Check in with yourself and see what you need.

9 times out of 10 I’m hangry, not actually angry. By pausing for a moment and seeing what you actually need, you can address that before and then see if the response is necessary. Have a drink of water, have a snack, take a quick walk, put on some music, talk to a friend.

Give yourself permission something that makes you feel just a little bit better in the next few moments. By tending to one or more of your needs, you’ll be able to get yourself in the right mindset to properly tune into yourself and figure out what you’re angry at and why- and most of all, if it’s worth being angry about.

6. Be angry. Let yourself feel how you feel, then let that sh*t go!

If you’re angry, you’re angry. Let yourself feel anger for a moment or two, but don’t hold onto it. Life is too short to be angry, and you won’t feel any better for staying angry. Very little is worth your anger, channel it into something better, make a change, or let it go!


100 Goals For 10 Years

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I’m a list girl. I make lists all day long, to do lists, grocery lists, lists of favorite things, favorite people, and favorite books.

I’ve always made sense of things by breaking it down into a list, both for organization and for accountability.

I am so tired of hearing myself go on about all the things I will do someday without having a plan to do so. Without having a broken down list. A bucket list – but we’re putting a 10 year time goal on it.

Will I do it all? Maybe. What if I don’t by 2030? That’s okay. But I’m giving it my all, because who knows if I’ll even have 10 years? Life is short and things can change in the blink of an eye. But today, Saturday August 15, 2020, I want to do these things within the next 10 years.


  1. Become fluent in Spanish
  2. Improve my public speaking abilities
  3. Learn to rock climb
  4. Learn to ski
  5. Learn basic sign language
  6. Learn to play piano
  7. Learn to scuba dive
  8. Learn to ice skate
  9. Learn to change my car’s oil
  10. Learn to play tennis


  1. Be my own manager
  2. Independently employ someone
  3. Attend a networking event
  4. Write a thank you letter to a past employer
  5. Make 100k in a year

Physical Health

  1. Practice yoga regularly
  2. Maintain a healthy weight
  3. Run a 5k
  4. Run a 10k
  5. Donate blood
  6. Donate plasma
  7. Get lasik eye surgery
  8. Get a breast reduction
  9. See a chiropractorr
  10. Hold a head stand for 1 minute

Mental Health

  1. Find spiritual grounding
  2. Create a self-portrait
  3. Go 24 hours without phone
  4. Go 48 hours without phone
  5. Go 72 hours without phone (a fun little “phone jail” maybe?)
  6. Get a couples massage
  7. See a psychic
  8. Take a flower pedal bath
  9. Become an intuitive eater
  10. Make peace with my body


  1. Travel to 2 more continents (aside from North America & South America ☑️)
  2. Travel to every state in the United States
  3. Go on a road trip with no destination
  4. Attend Mardi Gras
  5. See one of the 7 wonders
  6. Go backpacking
  7. Rent an RV and explore the west coast
  8. Ride a trolley in San Francisco
  9. Spend a holiday somewhere other than home
  10. Fill up a passport book – this is the cover that I use for mine and LOVE!

Experiences to Have

  1. Swim under a waterfall
  2. Leap off a rope swing
  3. See Wicked on Broadway
  4. Name a star
  5. Take an improv class
  6. Hug a redwood
  7. Take an outdoor shower
  8. Act in a play
  9. Meet a world leader
  10. Work on a pottery wheel

Smaller Things I’ve Always Wanted to Do

  1. Get fitted for a bra
  2. Grow a garden
  3. Get a third tattoo
  4. Try blonde highlights
  5. Bake my own bread
  6. Complete a 500 piece puzzle
  7. Pierce my nose
  8. Milk a cow
  9. Go into the woods to pick up trash
  10. Refinish a piece of furniture
  11. Make a scrapbook


  1. Reach a credit score of 700+
  2. Pay off my car
  3. Pay off my credit cards
  4. Save $25,000
  5. Pay off my student loans
  6. Win big on a scratch ticket
  7. Support a non-profit monthly
  8. Develop & stick to a budget

Side Hustle

  1. Monetize my blog
  2. Create a podcast
  3. Write memoir
  4. Write an article to get published in a newspaper or magazine
  5. Develop a loyal following
  6. Get verified on a social media platform
  7. Publish a book

Personal Growth

  1. Earn my masters degree
  2. Find a mentor
  3. Develop my core values
  4. Learn self-defense
  5. Join a book club
  6. Read 52 books in 1 year
  7. Attend a weekend retreat
  8. Befriend a complete stranger
  9. Go on a social media cleanse
  10. Relax in a hammock in a public place – I personally love this one:

Creating My Legacy

  1. Get engaged
  2. Get married
  3. Make my own family traditions
  4. Host a major holiday
  5. Be featured on a podcast
  6. Pass out candy on Halloween
  7. Become a foster parent
  8. Volunteer in a prison
  9. Own my property

And here we go! What goal (or 100) do you want to achieve in the next decade?

Let me know in the comments!

Be well,


I am doing okay.

8.8.2020, 12:22AM

Sometimes I wish that I could fast forward through the next five years. Skip past the hustle and grind, not pinch pennies to make rent, advance in my career, and to settle in to the rest of my life.

Life is really fucking hard. Like really hard. Harder than I expected, but 15 year old me never thought 24 year old me would be around and living the life I am. I’m better than I thought it I would be but I’m not living the life I am.

Looking around it feels like everyone has their life together. Everyone has it just about figured out, my high school friends are getting engaged, even married. My college friends are buying houses, and my coworkers are having kids. Life seems to be moving faster for everyone else and I want in.

I love my little family and my home, I love my job and my car and all the wonderful things I have. I love my friends, though few in quantity and far in distance, I’m supported no matter how far they are. My life is good and I am okay.

Even though I know in my head that my life is good, I worry if any of this is real. I worry that I will wake up and lose everything I have worked for. I worry irrationally and all of the time. Knowing that the thoughts are irrational is half the battle, but the other half is still hard. The other half is filled with doubt, doubt of others intentions, doubt of love, worthiness, and trust. I think I’m fake, and someday everyone will catch on and see it’s an act. It’s not an act, I know that. Irrational.

About a year and a half ago I scheduled my first therapy appointment. I walk in, depressed and anxious as can be, and unpack as much as I can as quickly as I could so it wouldn’t hurt as badly. Like ripping off a huge bandaid but in front of a complete stranger.

My therapist is my sounding board, my voice of reason, and even at times my cheerleader. When my therapist felt as if I wasn’t making much progress in treating my depression, she referred my to a psychiatrist and we begun the medication tango.

Wellbutrin, clonidine, lexapro, zoloft. Those are the four I’ve tried, currently I’m taking all but lexapro. The journey has been a literal roller coaster but slowly we are getting a good balance that works for me. The self care and therapy and coping skills are half of it, my medication is the other half. I’ve never been ashamed, the outcome has been too positive.

I’m working so hard on myself but I still want to skip ahead. I want to enjoy the here and now, the today, the present. I want to picture myself 80 and happy. But me as a happy 80 year old won’t be happy if I waste my time being sad about money or stressing over work. I have to become the woman I am meant to be.

I have it together more than I’ll ever give myself credit for. I’m a badass, working a cool and exciting job and making the world a better place. I am compassionate and honest and healthy. People want to be around me, they’re just also busy. I am doing okay, I am okay.

This is hard, but as my favorite human being Glennon Doyle repeatedly says, “We can do hard things”.

5 Tips For Embracing Our New Normal

A new normal.

That’s the latest description of this confusing time we’re in. We are literally in the middle of a global pandemic that has ravaged through each continent, took a hit at hospitals and emergency rooms, and created a lot of business for funeral homes.

“Unprecedented times” we call it. There is no guide on how to get through a global pandemic in 2020.

The serenity prayer comes into play in my field of work often, as I work with folks trying to maintain their sobriety.

“God, give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference”.

Let’s break that down, it’s more relevant today than ever.

Accepting what I cannot change. This has always been hard for me. I’m passionate about making change, fighting for social justice, and honestly, I feel better being in control.

I have the courage to change a whole lot, working with one of the toughest, most complex, and vulnerable populations.

I help folks whether or not they’re ready to be helped.

I advise alcoholics who have an important appointment for social security or housing to take a nip before going into their meeting, because otherwise they would go into withdrawal.

I provide a safe place for addicts to spend their day in between shooting up, because we can’t monitor for their safety on the street.

The harm reduction model keeps addicts alive so when they are ready to accept the help, they’ll be alive to do it. (Thank god for narcan!)

We can’t change someone who doesn’t want to be changed.

Likewise, we can’t end a global pandemic that has only just begun. There won’t be a vaccine for quite a bit of time, in the grief process of all we have missed out on or lost I am in the acceptance phase.

I won’t, however, accept things as they are. I won’t stay inside and binge Netflix (not everyday, anyway). I won’t mope about not being able to go to the movies, celebrate Pride, go to summer concerts, and vacation in Florida.

Here’s what I’ll do instead, I encourage you to try some of these too.

1) Spend time with your loved ones, however you can.

Check on each other, and do it intentionally. In this digital age, it is so easy to stay connected with your loved ones via FaceTime, FB Messenger Video, or my newest favorite, Zoom!

Add some structure in your life, and schedule these visits or hangouts in advance. It will give you something to look forward to. Living close to my family, we have also had visits in person, in lawn chairs 6 feet apart.

There’s just something about seeing your loved ones in person after not seeing them for a while that really makes you appreciate what you’ve got.

2) Move your body!

Exercise in a way that makes you feel good, get the blood flowing and bring on those endorphins. Personally, I enjoy going on hikes with my pup, riding the stationary bike at my apartment complex gym, and doing yoga.

I believe in the importance of embracing exercise as means to feel good, not to lose weight or be skinny. I exercise because I feel better after I move my body. I exercise because I feel more powerful as I get stronger. I cannot stress this enough – we are in crisis mode.

Go easy on yourselves, do what makes you feel good in every aspect of your life.

3) Get outside.

Go to the beach, go for a hike, read a book on your porch, lay in the sun, go to the pool.

I have never spent a beautiful summer day (with proper hydration and lots of sunscreen!) and regretted it after. Embrace nature, vitamin D, and all the beautiful world has to offer.

Do this safely: wear a mask when you cannot safely remain 6 feet apart, don’t go with people you don’t live with. Carry out what you bring in.

The pandemic has cleared the air in many smoggy, polluted spots. By taking a pause on life as we knew it, our planet is thanking us!

4) Learn something new.

As I scrolled through social media at the beginning of the pandemic, it seemed like everyone had become a professional baker and mastered the sourdough loaf recipe overnight.

Whether it’s baking, writing, drawing, yoga, knitting, or learning the inside scoop behind the BLM movement, how to be an ally (which I’m hopeful for many of you, you’re working on this!)

5) Allow yourselves time to rest.

Between worrying about coronavirus and the toll it is taking on our friends and families across the world, and fighting for the lives of BIPOC, it’s easy to get burnt out.

Rest, embrace self-care, meditate, drink water, and continue carrying on. Go easy on yourself!

As I’ve said, this global pandemic is not over. States and countries can continue to open, but for as long as there is not a vaccine and there are still positive cases, we will be dealing with this new normal for a while.

Embracing what is going on, even when it’s hard will allow you to sit in the acceptance phase and keep moving forward.